It’s a little bit of a sad idea, but do you think Adam ever gets panic/anxiety attacks over his powers and how close he came to destroying everything? Because I feel like he might, and I can’t help but imagine that Crowley, who actually Fell and knows what it’s like to realize that you’ve just lost everything, would be good at helping him work through that (because really, is a normal therapist gonna be able to help the Antichrist?) I’d love to hear your thoughts if you have a moment
I have several head canons to this, most of them pertaining to Crowley and Zira staying involved in Adam’s life precisely because they’re worried about something like this, and well, they missed out on being there for him when they were supposed to be guiding him, so the least they can do is be there for him now.
But perhaps say, in a universe where that doesn’t happen, yes, I do still believe a good child/teen therapist would be able to help him with that, because Adam’s story is our story. We all have power, we can all affect the world we live in an enact change, both great and small. We all have the potential to commit dark, horrible things in the name of despair, and we all grapple with that inner demon on a daily basis. It’s a universal human truth.
But we also have a great capacity for goodness, for kindness, to strive for the light, in both defiance and hope of our despair and just keep putting one foot in front of the other because someone’s got to fix this miss, someone has to do it. And if not you then who?
And while Adam does have very real, metaphysical powers with scope beyond mortal measure, the despair he feels? The overwhelming helplessness he feels at having all that power and not knowing what to do with it, is very much a relatable human emotion. And learning to control that is also part of the human experience, and he can’t learn to be human from a demon or an angel, he has to learn it from other humans. He has to learn where empowerment begins and how not to let it turn into something awful, how to use his sway in the world for good. And that starts with solidarity, love, and hope.
It starts with his friends, his family—his real family, the people who raised him—and if he needs it, a helping hand now and then from another adult trained in how to untangle his headspace.
And maybe a little help from Uncle Anthony every now and then, and a trip out in the Bentley for ice cream sandwiches down by the coast and a chat about ineffability and what it feels like to pick yourself up after you fall. And you’ll always fall, you’ll fall lots of times. It’s only human. But so is getting back up and trying again tomorrow.