starlit-lullaby:

my diagnosis is combined-type adhd so this’ll be a mess

(self-dx people can reblog too!)

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• time is a social construct/i have no concept of time (casually forgetting what day/month/year it is)
• chronic boredom
• rejection sensitive dysphoria
• i’m bored but everything is too boring/unappealing
• “where’s my phone???” i say, holding my phone
• thinking about one thing and then thinking about something else for literally one (1) second but immediately forgetting about what you were originally thinking about
• bad yet good memory (i.e: i can remember entire movie scripts from movies i watched years ago but i can’t remember what i did yesterday)
• Leg Bounce™
• can’t sit or stand still (i.e: i bounce my legs while sitting; i rock side to side while standing)
• stimming in general
• i have so much energy!!!!!!! i gotta move and jump around Right Now or else i’ll Die
• i know i should brush my teeth. all i have to do is pick up my tooth brush, put toothpaste on it, and brush my teeth. so why is my body doing Not That (executive dysfunction)
• literally everything is distracting (i.e: that clock on the wall at school? distracting. the air conditioning? distracting. someone tapping their pencil on their desk? distracting. can’t focus on anything but the distraction.)
• zoning out CONSTANTLY (can be both on purpose or accidental)
• i’m reading this book but i’m not processing any of the words on the pages so i have no idea what’s happening and fuck now i gotta reread it from the beginning (having to do this over and over again to actually be able to read something)
• what was i doing? what was i saying? what did i do yesterday? fuck if i know
• having no! sense! of! volume control! (i.e: yelling when you think you’re whispering – not being aware of this unless someone mentions it)
• i’m upset but i forgot why so now i’m just vaguely uncomfortable
• oops i forgot to eat again
• what’s an attention span? don’t know her
• zero impulse control